| Physical Training Aug 2004 |
Here I am again,
all, all within and without
I reach close, finally
can touch it, am I there, no as I have detached away again,
I have to begin, I have to start all over again
This vacuum needs
fire, fire which is not burning right now,
flame which needs
to be lid, warm, which need to be found
Is it here, is it
there, is it here now
Nowhere, anywhere,
lost or found, found and than lost again
Thus, this urge
of separation occurs
Why attach when
these elements,
These elements don’t
mix into creation of something new,
Every passing moment
this search is manifesting,
manifesting into
one singular recognition of true essence of ones own purpose, ones own
truth,
When fate has a
heavy hand, when struggle is suppose to be embraced
In order to feel
contentment, it takes a while to remove
It takes a while
to disguise, external smile, internal flow of tears,
dropping one by
one, flowing inside, creating a rush of self-control
Letting go, Letting
go
Do you cherish this
experience which has no connection to your core
You stay, in them
immersed, making them part of who you are,
yet you remain something
else,
someone who sometimes
you cant even recognize,
It all going on,
on and on, day by day
Whether you want
it or not
Whether you open
your eyes or not
It still will be
there, its still there, its still here, it still remains
Ego, Control, Power,
Desire, Dreams, Hopes, Faith, Envy, Love
All in All, All
in, All out
Do you create all
this, or is it an automatic function of existence
Do you go with the
future, or stay in the mist of evasiveness
Do you put all you
have to make it according to your mind,
or is it going to
be the way it was always meant to be
Do you question,
Do you wonder, Do you crave an answer,
all these questions,
are there answers
Are these answers
for you to receive in the end,
so you can start
all over again, and again
Digging your fingers
in the soil, to find an equilibrium of oneself
Change, Movement,
Change, Change everywhere
Faces, Places, Voices,
here now, gone tomorrow
Leaving you with
more answers to seek for these questions
Why are you here
now? Where will you go tomorrow?
You attach, You
detach, You come, You go
Did you come to give,
Did you arrive to take
Did you teach, Did
you learn,
Did you stay the
same, Did you become more
Will you know, within
or without
Will you discover,
before you are suppose to
If you do, will
you leave, will you turn around
Will you let go,
let go of it all
Pain, Desire, Envy,
Control, Ego, Sorrow
Leaving only the
core, LOVE
Disconnection from
oneself, will not bring what you came here for
For one, singular
self, you, you by yourself
You come near, You
come close, you than have to let go, l
let go to start
all over again, and again, within or without
Its not suffering
as few said
Its not only Happiness
It’s not exactly
fear
It’s not an end
It’s not a beginning
It’s a question,
It’s a search for your own answer
Within or without
All within or without
you stay, yet you stay in it
In and out, by choice,
by fate, by destiny
Yet another question
waiting to be answered
Sadness is always
felt when you don’t know
You try to understand
from no needs
You try to understand
from the instinctive truth
You try to understand
from experience,
from every breath,
from every moment
Within or Without
The journey is long
You can sometimes
walk through valley of despair
All going down and
down, carrying hope in a cloth filled with soil,
Keeping the movement
going, Keeping the eyes high up
They might not understand,
how you can make them, there is no need to,
As this search is
manifestation of one, singular recognition
Recognition of the
true essence of ones own purpose, ones own truth
You are here, when
you are here
It can be by effect,
here by reaction
Here by substance,
here by cause
The question remain
Why?
Why? For your own
truth
For your own eyes
For your own soul
To manifest, to
transfer, to further become, to evolve
To further grow,
within or without
So you seek validation
no more
So you control others,
no more
So you stay aware,
you fear no more
You do from three
eyes
You be from your
own truth
You listen, You hear,
You wait, You wait a bit more
All shades are meant
to be felt, to be within or without
Stay, Be
Being, Staying
Silence can be your
speech
Instinct can be
your voice
Diffusing the energy
everywhere
Distributing the
truth all around
Spreading it all
around, everywhere
Spreading it like
red rose petals on top of muggy water
Moving the stagnation,
discovering the stillness, the inner peace
By only removing
one petal, feeling it inside, by seeing the deep,
By diving deep,
escaping from the muddy surfaces, within or without
Needs, no wants
Wants, no needs
From you or you,
less and less, every moment from moment
Sounds can still
this deceptive vacuum, created within from previous time
It can grow smaller
and smaller, once you know, once you recognize
Its you, only you
manifesting one, singular recognition
Recognition of the
true essence of ones own purpose, ones own truth
Till the answers
are received, till its your time to know
You pass one sound
after the other, one feeling after other
Staying several
moments here, few moments there
Connecting with
this face, than another
Staying in the light
of your own truth
In, Within and Without
or Without
It stays, till its
time, time to know
Till you remain
within or without
Within or Without
for now
Within or Without
till you find out, till you find out
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